Stupid brain!

[eee1313]

Ugh. Just had a terrible, terrible dream. I hate my brain. Dreamt I went back to U of I with Poo-flung and Yakgirl, and who did we run into but my evil ex? I tried to ignore him, but then he came and sat directly behind us, and he wasbeing all passive-aggressive to get my attention, and I had to pretend like I hadn't been ignoring him. And then I had to engage in small talk with him, pretending to be all interested, when really I just wanted to run and hide. At this point Yakgirl and Poo-flung had disappeared completely, and I couldn't blame them for leaving. So he was being all melancholy woe-is-me, and the last thing I wanted was to deal with that. No, the last thing I wanted was for him to ask why I dumped his ass, because I so did not want to get into that. And he sat there playing with his wedding ring, making a point of how he's married now, and when I tried being polite and congratulating him he started telling me how they've been in counselling, and why do all of his relationships go bad? Ugh. Terrible. And I didn't want to get into it with him, to really explain why I dumped him, because he was just so thick-headed in the first place that he didn't get it, and I didn't want to rehash it all. And then he did the ultimate loser move and pulled out a pen he'd been carrying, the one he was playing with when I broke up with him. I was all "WTF is wrong with you!? You have a wife! Get over it!" And then I apologized, but then immediately took it back because I didn't want him to think I was sorry we broke up, because Lord knows I'm not. Then he started to do that angry/sad cry thing, and Lord, was it terrible. Seriously, terrible.

I hate that every few months, I'll have this dream where he shows up and confronts me about our breakup, and I always wake up totally traumatized. Although it's weird -- this was the first time I'd dreamt about him and he'd actually aged. Normally he looks the same. But this time, he was heavier and his hair was shorter (thank God!) and the dream was so detailed that he actually had an indentation in his ring finger from his wedding band when he took it off. OMG, I'm totally traumatized. This better not be a forewarning of some kind, that somehow he's going to pop up out of the blue. ::shudders::

Now I'm off to take a nice, hot shower and scrub my skin till it bleeds.

Comments

[sunbrae.livejournal.com]

*shudder* Freaky.

*sends good dream juju*

[nmissi.livejournal.com]

My guess is that subconciously, you want this confrontation to occur; so you keep revisiting it in your dreams.

Maybe you ought to track him down and send him a Christmas card? Just a thought.